Dear Diary

a short entry…

well it happens last year actually… while i was driving to fren’s place one pleasent day.. "like writing a novel or essay la"… kekeke
ok… continue my story…

…. while i was driving sumthing really ‘touches’ me when i saw a lady i early 50s i think… walks out from the side of the road suddenly… at 1st i tot she wanted to cross the street and i was ready to hit on my break only to realise that she was actually picking those animal corps.. yes… ‘a very kind hearted lady’.. her deed actually helps to prevent accident indirectly coz usually when ppl suddenly saw a corps they will suddenly avoid it without looking left or right …rite.. get what i mean..

so that’s y i say she’s a very kind hearted lady…

nyway that’s all 4 now…

-pending off-

Been wanting to post up this blog but have been bz this few days so here i am typing in the mid of morning and nite(3.38am) i know it sound crazy but i cant find anytime off other than now..

Ok.. last sat i went to sunway surf beach 4 988 some musical party which i got it for free.. altho it’s packed with a lot of people (mind u diff races as well) but then it quite worth it to been pushed and sandwiched by the fans… the party started with Neils, from i forgot which radio station, and 3 other DJs, which i kenot remember their name, playing game with the fans and giving out prices.. (Neils was easy to remember coz she’s the only rose among the thorns) then Gary came on stage and started singing 988fm theme song.. i guess pictures speaks louder than words so i think i shall post them up 4 u ppl to see….
sorry.. it’s a bit small and not that clear i know.. my spot is not that nice that’s y.. but then u all can see it’s gary.. ahahah

then KK and 2 other DJ came on stage to host the party of that nite
that’s taken from the big screen..

then the singers start coming out one by one..
this is wen li ming.. all artist sang 2 songs each (1 fast hip hop and 1 sentimental soothing song) i only remember one of it which is ’siapa’

Evan chai ming you

i forgot his name but wat i remember is he’s damn tall (190++cm)

ah niu who jus came back from shanghai i think sang his latest song.. one of it sounds sumthing like ‘yue liang’

I think nobody would forget her.. she’s the first superstar (singapore) Su Xing Hui.. actually she’s a Malaysia.. jus that she happened to join the Superstart competiton held in S’pore
Lee Sheng Jie, one of the most talented artist of that nite.. he performed another song while laying down on the stage and still he sings well

Janice, she sang 2 songs            
(1 solo and 1 duet with charles)
her ’si dai’

and the last artist to performed is none but..
yes.. it’s Gary Cao Ge..
he sang superman and ‘liang zhi lian ren’

the party ended with each singer coming out to performed encore.. each with their most well known songs..

Alrite.. that’s all 4 today’s post.. till then pending off…

Remember the last few blog one of it was bout a day as a criminal sumthing like that.. well here’s the pic of that small little girl 2 years after she makes me looks like a crimanal once..

she looks so cute an innocent hor.. dont get conned.. u might b the next victim.. ahahah

nyway now she’s a jie jie d.. here’s the little brother currently my mum is also babysitting.. at least the little brother’s a bit better… he dont cry when i carry him..

isn’t  he cute.. eheheh..he’s only almost 6 months old if u all wanted to know…

that’s all 4 this time’s posting.. till then c ya ppl..

Still the same not stay the same..
Well i guess sum ppl jus wun change no matter how..
It’s been half year now but things stil didnt change.. he still bosses around the hse thinking everything is his, he’s under control. Everyone has to listen to him even my parents i can say. Lots of ppl told me that he’s not mature yet jus gives him sum time.. how long does he has sumore i wonder.. he’s already 24th goodness sake.Tolerance will no longer prevail in me as everyone does has a limit with it.*sigh with disappoinment* that i has a person staying under one roof.How can a person b such a good actor in front of his friends while at home he can be such a devil (konon-nya he’s alrd baptised and going to church everyyyyyyyyysundayyyyy)!!???

He did found sum1 now but stil nothing changes. He’s stil the same old person under the roof but stil and oscar winner outside.If i ever meet the girl next time at home, i’ll surely make him show his true self to her and let her b the judge then.If only i had the chane to coz i can tolerate anymore or soon, my fren, u all will have to visit me in ‘hospital bahagia’…

I guess i’ve the worst brother (blood-tie brother) ever in the world.. y?? too many reasons to it.. i think i dont even have enuf space to blog bout it.. but that only refers to my oldest bro altho sumtimes my second bro gets on my nerves but there’s still toleration between us but i can tolerate no more with the oldest… argh!! altho v must forgive and forget but i think i suffered for 10 years d.. it’s more than enuf.. since the first time he slapped me, it hit my ear badly and now one’s pressure is ‘not that balance’ and sumtimes i even have ear block when i’m having slight flu..

Stingy  and Selfish..
My family only have 2 cars at home so of coz if my dad’s car (wira) is not home, when v wanna go out surely v’ll have to use the other car (iswara, and he claim that it’s his, others can’t use without his permission) but jus lately he start to use his own money to pump his petrol, he dont allowed other ppl to use the car altho jus to go sumwhere near 5 minutes drive away altho he’s not using the car coz he say he use his own money to pump the petrol (he’s working) but last time when he always claim petriol money from my dad, v still have to get his permission to use the car. 2ndly, if my parents are not home and i’m taking ktm back from coll, i’ll have to reach the teluk gadong station b4 calling him to come and fetch me, he will never wait there altho for a minute. I remembered once i reach there i think bout 2 minutes late and he went home bcoz he dint see me in the station, lucky thing it was not night coz sumtimes i have night class.. (i’m not the person conducting the ktm, sumtimes they stop a bit longer at the stations b4 teluk gadong station or move slower than normal speed, then i might b late a few minutes that’s normal wert, sumthing i can’t controlled ok..) but when he fetch his fren he can wait 1 hour also i think he dont mind. He never buy any gifts 4 his siblings or parents b4 during our bday or stuff and i bought him sumthing 4 his bday b4 but he dint even thanks me.

Useless..
I think almost everyone who have internet connection now uses streamyx which u can use unlimited hours to online but he’s so ‘the idiot’ (use to be). We use to have to ask him to type in the password when we wanna online and he dont ever connects it straight away when u ask him to.. he’ll take he own sweet time to do other stuff and when he pass by the computer hall again then mayb if he feels like it he’ll connect 4 u (stupid right) and after I complain(x10000000000) to my dad and told my dad not to pay the internet bill anymore if he still dowan to give us the password. (it’s so inconvinient 4 us coz sumtimes v urgently need to surf the net 4 coll stuff, assignments, timetable and dl past year questions) Til today he still haven tell us the password but he save the password in the computer d ler.. (improvement? Not at all.. jus that he got some secrets that he doesnt wants me to show my parents that’s y he do that)

He’s the boss of everything in the house
The comp, the car and etc.. He thinks everything is his jus bcoz he’s the main fellow using it.. Especially the comp.. when he wants to use it.. u better move aside or u’ll DIE and when he’s using dont dream that u wanna use he’ll allows u to use it straight away.. if u have patience wait few hours ler till he gets bored and dont wanna use d and if u wanna download any mp3 songs or receive them from frens u have to delete other songs that u have previously download.. u only own a limited space in the harddisk.. the space all belongs to him fully.. as if like the computer was paid by him using his own money (yea yea keep dreaming).. the car (use to can use it when he’s not using but with his permission) but now even he’s not using dont dream even to touch it.. (his petrol money). Everyone must ‘respect’ (follow his ‘order’)him but he dont respect anyone at home..

Well too much to type and i dont wanna complain too much also.. i know me, myself are not that obidient, good or angelic but i believe myself is still a better person compared to him (yea, v should not compare ourself to others). That’s y u all can always hear i’m excited (last time) when my 2nd bro is coming back from aussie but now that he’s back here i feel better (i feel i’ve a bro at home now) I dont have the feeling of i have a bro at home last time when my 2nd bro is not around and it seems that most of my frens thinks that i only have one bro (studying in aussie)..

Nyway glad that bro is back and i’ll pray 4 a better me and HIM… hopefully i will change myself also ler.. seems to like inherited all this bad stuff.. hope that now my 2nd bro is back i’ll learn more good things from him and also my frens (those good and angelic ones) hehehe..

p/s: jus a blog to express my anger.. feeling better now.. hopefully i dont get betray by my frens who read this and go complain to HIM or else i think i wont live til the next day…

Wow.. all this while i tot that walking all the way from taylors to sunway coll is an impossible thing and it will take u an hour or 2 to reach but then ystday i prove myself wrong 4 the first time.. ahahha yea i know.. i always thinks that i’m right all the time and for the first time i admitted my ‘wrong’ (bomb me as u want) and seriously ppl who’re in hurry and desperate moment would do anything to obtain that sumthing but in my case it was a bit different as i was in hurry to get back to coll bcoz i have another class at 6.30pm..

Well actually my fren and I did not really planned to walk all the way to sunway.. v jus planned to walk across to any bus station to board a bus but after v started walking v decided not to stop as the both of us were in a hurry and walked all the way to sunway from taylors college.. YES v seriously walked all the way.. no bus, no taxi and no car… yea abit like phsyco (i know i know) but wat to do v didnt meet anyone we know or anyone who’s willingly to offer us a ride.. kekeke .. but wow.. we made a new record.. v only spend bout 25 minutes to walk.. ‘geng’(cekapler)?? hahaha. On the other hand it was a great execise under the hot sun to tant my skin.. ahahah. Erm despite the wiselling and disturbance from the " ‘uneducated’ and never see girls walking b4 guys, with a bit of tiredness and soaking in sweat, i think i would spend that 25 minutes walking again next week if i have too. Call me a phsyco or watever i dont mind coz i think it was a great experience and wasnt really that bad.. ^o^

Hey ppl, frens & buddies, thanks to those who read my blogs and posted comments.. at least i know my blogs is not dead then.. eheheh… btw for your info, i did reply back your comments.. in the comments box.. so do kindly go back and refer.. thanks thanks..

Coll have started for 2 weeks now and entering into the third week but still i’m not in the mood to study. Been watching a lot of love stories (both korean and taiwaness) these days makes me feel that, "how nice if i’m the main actress there" but then i wont wanna end up having ’sickness and die’ (like most of the korean dramas).. would prefer the taiwaness version where they end up happily ever after thingy u know.. but i know sounds like fairy tales and hardly in reality and still i believe there will b sumhow..

Well wonder have sum of u ever fell in love twice with the person who u never been in a relationship with b4? This question suddenly came up while i was watching the dramas.. Erm jus like u know u like sum1 and then later u dont like him and then u like him again.. and of coz it happened bcoz sumthing happened between both of u.. sumthing nice.. but u know u wont b with that person for sum reason.. wat would u do then?? will u confess, keep it to yourself or forget bout it or mentioned it to a friend and keep it a secret? I would still prefer jus let that sum1 to know.. coz i feel that nothing to shy bout it.. i know that mostly girls till thinks that it’s better for a guy to take the first move but hey.. i know couples which lasted for 8 years now and gonna get married soon where the girl who took the first move.. instead i think that the relation where the girl who took the first moves will last more compare to when the guys take the first steps.. nyway.. wat do u ppl think?

But still the most important thingy is both side must show equal commitment or else i dont think any relation can work, agree?

OMG!! Never once in my life i ever felt so embarrassed and sad b4.. anyone ever been treated as a criminal? A ‘big,huge and serious criminal act?? Didnt know when there’s certain frens who says i’m too naif can still b a criminal…

Ppl who are close to me knows that my mum is actually babysitting for quite sumtime now and currently babysitting a 19 months old baby girl.. So today as i haven start my friday class, trying to b a good daughter, i fetch my mum and the baby to UOB (united oversea bank) the meru branch and let my mum to go check sum stuff with the bank ’safe box’ thingy while i stayed in the bank waiting area with the baby.. jus bout 3-5 minutes after my mum went in to check the safe box, the baby starts to cry and wants my mum.. but then i know my mum wont come out so fast.. so i carried her and ‘pat’ her to stop her from crying.. but i failed as a babysitter.. she cried even louder and now, ppl started noticing me, worst was those staring they gave me as if i’m really a kidnapper trying to kidnap the baby i’m carrying..

A guard ask me to go to the atm machine there coz there got not much ppl and ‘almost’ sealed so that the baby’s cried would x b heard till the bank counter.. but then a clerk suspecting sumthing is wrong, she was thinking if the baby is my sister or sum1 related to me, then she would have stop crying, so she came a approach me asking wat happened and wanted to carry the baby 4 me instead.. lucky thing the baby was not those type that’s too friendly and will go to whoever who wants to carry her so she sticks to me.. PHEWWW… then another clerk mayb higher rank fellow ask the lady clerk to watch me CLOSE.. as in i was really very suspicious, mayb i was kidnapping the baby and waiting 4 the ransom money or waiting 4 the baby’s parents to withdraw money from the bank and give it to me b4 i give them back their child.. GOSH!!

I was getting more and more worried when i see the clock keeps on ticking from 11.05 to 11.35.. and worst the baby didnt stop crying 4 half and hour.. imagine.. lucky thing when it’s almost 11.40 my mum came out and no police was called or informed yet… if the police were there i think i’ll have been black listed as potential kidnapper and i’ll have a record in a police staition at the age of 20.. hey i think i still got way ahead of my life k… and ppl u wont get to see me for 48 hours coz i’m being ‘ground’ inside a jail (after 18 no more juvenile case)…

So really thank god that nothing bad happened.. but i think the 2 clerk remembers my face very well.. so hopefully no any baby kidnapping cases broke out after this.. or else.. i’ll b the main suspect the police will b looking for becoz the clerks can b witness that i was carrying a baby crying non-stop.. *sigh*

Ok.. after suffering for 3 weeks.. now i’m free.. yes.. been waiting 4 this time to come 4 very long but it would not last for very long as well.. i’ve got only 2 weeks of break and another killer sem i waiting 4 me ahead. Seniors alway tell me that college life is to enjoy so that i would not have regrats later when i goes out to the working world but then i can’t really enjoy my college life in this ACCA course where my longest hols will b 3 weeks and can b as short as 1 weeks, every maximum of 2 months there’s a trials paper, every 4 months then it’s time to get ready for finals and after finals in 8 weeks time results time.. see wat a life i have.. this is gonna repeat for at least 3 years.. and worst can b as long as 4 years… damn… well since i’ve chosen this route myself i should not complain then..

Alright back to my hols.. altho it have only started a day but then i’m all hooked up with part time jobs and no frens to hang out with.. herm.. must find sumthing that i can do it alone without needing ppl to accompany or else i’m gonna b bored to death soon.. Well for those frens who really reads my blogs.. do help me out then.. eheheh